All my life, I’ve never really fit in- from the way I look to the things I like, and though over the past few years, I’ve grown to realize that being different is more of a good thing than a bad one, the thought of putting myself out there still fills me with immense anxiety. Nonetheless, I’m going to do it anyway.
For my first post, I decided to wear something that I’ve always wanted to ,but never had the guts to- a crop top.
The reason why I chose the title I did for this post is because I am fat and fat people aren’t supposed to wear crop tops or anything body hugging, or so they say. Well I don’t know who the hell this “they” is but they sure do sound awfully stupid. I’ve never really liked being told what to do, so why would I let someone tell me now right?
I’ve always been fascinated by fashion- everything about it has always been so amusing to me. The idea of people showcasing their personalities through what they wear or do to their hair just seemed so great. But then as I grew up, I realised that even though the fashion industry is fun, it is also toxic. The creative freedom that one is promised isn’t freedom at all because it has limitations and “rules”. There are set standards of what is considered beautiful and being fat just doesn’t fit the bill.
I’ve surfed through the “Fashion Tips” columns of numerous magazines and blogs, and they all state this one golden rule – if you’re fat, stay away from anything that makes you look fat- and don’t even think about wearing crop tops or clothes that hug your body because those are for people with flat stomachs. For the longest time, I had internalized this , but now that I’m older I’ve realized that it’s absolute hogwash! I’ve learned to embrace my body for what it is and to wear whatever the hell I want.
curves and all
OKAY, moving on to the outfit! My sense of style is lowkey inspired by grunge and street fashion and I think this look represents that perfectly. Now I don’t really own any crop tops , so I just folded up this adorable t-shirt with tiny stars in half and wore it as one. I teamed it up with a body hugging grey thick jersey midi skirt.
Nice wall, amirite? *insert Brendon Urie joke*
I threw on a denim jacket because they look so good? I absolutely love them. A good denim jacket is a wardrobe staple, in my opinion, and it has the power to make any outfit look cool as hell.
Oho wannabe model pose.
I’m also wearing my “DAAAMN DANIEL” white slip ons that I love so so much. Honestly, I am so glad I bought these. They are so comfy and go with almost everything.
Homage to a solid meme.
I’m also carrying my LOVE light denim backpack, because apart from being convenient, its also just really cute and I think it added another touch of denim to the outfit.
For accessories, I kept it simple with a classic 90’s tattoo choker and my silver nose ring. Ooh and round sunnies! For make-up – I can’t live without my winged eyeliner and I sure do love wearing lipstick, in this case a dark plumey berry tone.
Letting that forgotten undercut out in the sun.
Skirt, Shoes & Choker: H&M.
Denim Jacket: Levi’s.
Photography by: Anusha Jagannath.(Love u anoosher.)
Ah! That’s all for this post. I hope you guys enjoyed it. My message to everyone reading this is – Don’t be afraid to step out of boundaries and wear whatever makes you happy. There is no one set way of “being” and we are all valid and beautiful and the sooner we try to accept that, the better.
Lots of love,
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